the "i never should have replied" blog- well. most of you knew that "you know who" texted me saying to call her back. i didn't call back all day. everyone said not to, but i knew that i wanted to, so i did. i should have listened to everyone else and never replied. it probably would have been for the better.

anyways. here's the story.. she texted me in the morning saying, "call me on your break." we were so busy most of the afternoon that i never got around to it. everyone knew she texted me, everyone said don't bother replying and i should move on. i thought i had moved on, but deep down i knew i still cared about her.. i replied after work saying, "sorry no reply earlier been busy. i cant call you. i just cared about you so much and i hate thinking your with someone else." no reply for about 20 minutes, then a reply.. "i think that's fucked up but thats good luck in all you do." (sounds like another incomplete sentence to me).

guess she showed me. whatever. where did i go wrong? things used to be good. she made me happy and (i thought) i made her happy too.. i guess she thought i was pressuring her into a relationship and we talked briefly about it.. she said she just got out of her last one which was a long time and all she needed was a friend.. i was fine with that. i cared about her and just wanted her to be happy. no big deal.. she quit TP to go elsewhere, and the next thing i know she is already in another relationship.. what's up with that? had enough time passed so she felt ready for another one? it really hadn't been that long..

anyways.. nobody probably wants to read this shit anyways.. if you ever do come to my website anymore amanda, where did i go wrong? i cared about you and would have done anything for you.. i should have listened to everyone who told me to move on way back when.. i thought you were different and i thought we could be something.. sorry i cared about you so much, guess i never should have..

sorry everyone else who has to read this..